Teach me to do thy will; for thou art my God: thy spirit is good; lead me into the land of uprightness. -Psalm 143:10
It was harder than it initially seemed.
Doesn't it sound simple enough; stay off Facebook until the 29th day of your fast...
I was doing great, folks. I had WONDERFUL prayer time this morning, listened to my Spensha Baker singing like an angel... Journaling my inner thoughts, and optimistic for the future in my new walk with Christ.
Then I had a splendid idea after I posted my "Contracts" blog this morning. I would send out... an email! Yes! To everyone, telling them to read my blog since I couldn't "update my status" on Facebook. Genius!
On to Google I went. I would simply tell my facebook buddies to "spread the word" in my absence.
Is I only have three email addresses saved to my gmail account. Not exactly how I saw the buzz getting out there.
Then entered another idea:
Go onto Facebook, just for the email addresses of your friends.
Okay, I thought. That's good, right? Just get the emails and get off, right? Don't comment or even read status updates...right?. No YoVille...or Sorority Life...or videos...on and off. No one will ever know the difference...right?
Stop right there...WHO WON'T!
God is not fooled by my bending of the rules!
No sooner than I got the first ten addresses, did a fellow "truth seeker" catch wind of my cheating... and call me out on the facebook chat! (Thanks Ma'am, we need folks to keep us in line sometimes ;-)
I got off line disappointed in myself, with deep conviction. Not because I had been "caught" by a friend, she was joking in her tone and I am sure meant no harm.
No, it was God I had disappointed.
I tried to reason with Him:
"But God, I didn't read any comments..."
"And you know it was for a good reason..."
"...God, but I want to share my story with others. You said it was my purpose, remember? ...Remember?"
I went to my Written Source for answers to why I felt so...well, guilty.
I found it.
"Servants, obey in all things your masters according to the flesh; not with eyeservice, as manpleasers; but in singleness of heart, fearing God.
-And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men;
-Knowing that the Lord ye shall receive the reward of the inheritance for ye serve the Lord Christ."- Collosians 3:22-24
So that's it. I had gone wrong when I disobeyed the service put on my heart to fast from my dependence on social networking. The people pleaser in me wanted to get the message out; but God would not have us to be disobedient to His Word, to bend the rules just a little for the greater good, would He?
He said no facebook for... one month. No negotiations!
The flesh is so weak, even when we think WE are "doing the right thing" and go against FAITH to get what we think we need, we have lessened the almighty power of HIS WILL. This is how the enemy creeps in and plays on our pride, egos, fears and insecurities. That is why the Living Word and the Written Word is so detrimental to staying faithful to your love walk.
Have you ever "bent the rules" thinking you knew what was best for you instead of God?
Think about a time you may have let the enemy trick you into going against faith to "Shortcut" your way to what you think you need?
Wow! He is so good. I understand now more than ever why this fast is important for me. ( I do miss you guys in FB land already though. )
As far as the blog "Contracts", I am putting my whole entire biznass out there; in faith that it will serve a greater Purpose- to testify to how low the enemy will take us and to how beautifully He can lift and renew our very souls.
It will reach who it is intended to help because I have faith it will. HE doesn't need my help in that. He said "tell the truth." That is all.
To have faith is to simply say: The rest, I leave in HIS hands.
Day Two will involve no cheating, I promise! :-)
Love you guys! God bless!
- ▼ 2009 (18)